Only He Will Always Be in Your Heart

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Author: Me aka Yuuki
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Genre: Non-AU, Angst, Romance
Rating: PG
Length: One shot
Summary: Jun knows it. No matter what, in Sakurai Sho's heart there will always be Aiba Masaki
Disclaimer: wish I could own them but sadly I don't



Only He Will Always Be in Your Heart


“Sho-kun! Sho-kun!” yelled an over excited Matsumoto Jun while entering the dressing room.

Since Kinki Kids had to perform that day, many juniors were called as back dancers and were now waiting for go on standby.

“What? What?” asked the older laughing as he saw his friend jumping happily.

“I got the perfect score in the math test!” he hugged him tight.

“I’m so happy for you Jun! You studied hard for it right?” Sho ruffled his hair making the other smile wide.

Nino, who was sitting in the sofa reading a manga, looked at them and laughed a bit. It was not a secret that Matsumoto Jun was a huge fan of Sakurai Sho. Whenever he had the chance he would hug him or simply touch him. On this, TV programs were really helpful since fans liked to see the interaction between them. If Jun had been a girl he probably would have already confessed to Sho, but being a guy this was one hundred times more difficult. Well, it wasn’t like he himself said to be in love with Sho. It was just something so evident that only an idiot couldn’t have seen. And Sakurai Sho was an idiot.

“What are you thinking?” he looked up and saw Toma stand right in front of him.

“About that little boy over there” he answered and with a head’s gesture he pointed to Jun who was now explaining the math test detail by detail.

“He really likes Sho-kun” the younger stated still keeping his eyes on him.

Jun’s eyes were sparkling every time Sho would compliment him on resolving a difficult question.

“You’re really smart Jun-kun! If you want you can easily go to university!” he praised him and the other could only blush.

“I don’t think that I could manage both work and school, unfortunately I’m not like you” he stated looking down.

“Don’t say like that! It’s not like I’m so amazing. When I will go to university I will too have problems!” Sho laughed and pushed him jokingly.

His cheeks were deep red and he was really hoping that Sho would never realize it. But when he raised his head, he found out that there wasn’t any risk because now Sho was fully focused into someone else. Aiba Masaki.

“Aiba-kun! Aiba-kun! You too had the math test today right? How it went?” he asked concerned coming closer to him.

“Well it’s not like it went so good but it didn’t go even bad. Let’s say that the result it’s in the middle” he said before throwing himself on the sofa.

“I’m sure it went well, don’t worry! You did your best and you studied very hard for it! I can confirm since I helped you every day” Sho tried to comfort him and patted his head.

“You’re so kind Sho-chan, thank you” he whispered.

Sho just hugged him and they remained like that for several minutes.

Nino smiled seeing how his best friend and Sho went along very well and turned to look at Jun but he was nowhere to be seen.


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“Sho-kun are you okay?” Jun went to ask.

All juniors were gathered in the dome practicing for the incoming Johnny’s Countdown, all of them doing their best. Jun too was at his maximum but when he saw Sho sitting on a chair looking down with a gloomy face he couldn’t help but run to him.

“Oh Jun-kun, hi. I’m okay thanks, what about you?” he gently asked flashing him a smile.

“I’m okay too” he answered and the other only nodded.

After silent fell between them, Sho seeming not in a good mood while Jun thinking of what he could do for the other.

“Is there something bothering you?” the younger asked finally.

“Well…you can say that” he shortly responded.

Jun kept staring at him waiting for an explanation and understanding that he wouldn’t give up, Sho sighed and started to speak.

“You know that I like rap right? Yesterday I tried to write some lines and I really liked them but today I hate them” he sighed again while looking at the notebook he had on his left hand.

“You wrote lines? I want to read them so much! Please let me see!” he jumped on his seat while clapping his hands.

“I’m sorry but I didn’t want someone else to see them” he hid his notebook on his bag making Jun understand that he really didn’t want him to see.

“What do you mean ‘someone else’?” he said frowning.

“Nothing”

“I know that it isn’t Sho-kun, please tell-“

“It’s none of your business!” Sho yelled.

He then stood up and walked away leaving a shocked Jun behind.

“I’m an idiot” he thought while covering his face with his hands.

It was clearly that Sho didn’t want to talk about it but he carelessly kept asking him and putting him in a difficult situation. Probably he had felt really uncomfortable since he reacted like that.

“Don’t worry, it’s not your fault” he heard a familiar voice.

He looked up and saw Nino smiling at him.

“What do you mean? I made him angry”

“He is not angry. He is sad” the other affirmed.

Seeing the confused face of the other, Nino decided to share his information with him and sat beside him.

“I heard this from Kazama. He told me that today Sho showed to Aiba that lines you were talking about but it seems that he didn’t received the message” he explained.

“Message…?” Jun whispered to himself.

“The last line said ‘the one that is reading now, yes you, you are the one that I only love’ and you know what that idiot said? ‘The girl who will read it will like it very much! I’m sure that she will blush reading it!’ “ he laughed bitterly.

At that moment it was very clear why Sho didn’t want him to read those lines.

“Only one person can” he breathed out looking down.

Even though Nino didn’t know the meaning of that, he just patted his friend on his back. He really didn’t know what to hope anymore. That Sho will realize Jun’s feelings and started going out with him or that Jun will decide to give up on Sho since it’s clearly an unrequited love?


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“I think I will just stay at home” Nino said while yawning.

They were coming back from a TV shooting and since the street was dominated by red and green, it came out the subject of Christmas’ Eve.

“Nino you can’t stay at home even that day!” exclaimed jokingly Yamapi.

“Why not? At home it’s very warm while outside there is too much cold. Why I should go out then?” he questioned ironically.

All of them laughed at that. Nino was so an indoor-type that if he could, he would probably never leave his house.

“About that day Aiba-kun…it will be your birthday right? Do you plan to spend it with your family?” he heard Sho behind him whispering to Aiba.

“Well we didn’t talk about it yet but I think so, why?” the other responded.

“I was wondering if…if you wanted to go to the amusement park…with m-me” at those words Jun’s heart clenched.

“You really want me to go to you? Really?” Aiba’s tone was filled with joy.

“Why would I say this to you then?” the other chuckled.

They both laughed and Jun could imagine perfectly how Sho was smiling at that moment.

“He must be very happy…He will have a date with Aiba” he sighed but kept on smiling and talking to the others since he didn’t want them to find out his sadness.


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He knew that this was wrong and that he shouldn’t be there but here he was. Behind a tree in the amusement park spying his crush and his friend and rival. He could have never imagined to arrive right at the most important moment. Yes he couldn’t hear them because they were too far away, but he figured out that Sho was confessing to Aiba.
He saw how Sho’s feet were playing with some little stones, how his hands were in his pants’ back pockets before he took them out and then once again put them in the pockets. He must have been very nervous.
At that moment he saw Sho’s lips moving and after some minutes he saw how Aiba’s eyes and mouth widened in sync.

“He said it. He confessed” he stated.

He could feel his heart pounding in his chest, probably at the same intensity as the one of Sho.

Aiba and Sho just stared at each other. The latter breathing nervously and fast while the other seemed froze. Then Aiba looked down and started to play with his hands. When he raised his head he said something. Jun didn’t know what but it had to be a positive answer since he saw Sho’s face brighten and his mouth forming a very big smile. Even Aiba was smiling but he couldn’t see if he was talking since his sight started to blurry. When he wiped his eyes he saw Sho running towards Aiba to hug him tightly.

“You surely are happy, ne Sho?” his voice near to break.

And when Sho cupped tenderly Aiba’s face and then kissed him he felt his heart break. The last thing he saw were Aiba’s arms wrapping around Sho’s neck and bringing him closer. He ran away from that sight. Even when he bumped into some people, after a quickly apologize, he kept on running. Even when he tripped and fell on the ground, he kept on running.

He went home and when he was under the sheets, he let the tears fall. To tell the truth, he didn’t even know why he was crying. He knew that Sho loved Masaki, he knew that for him he was just a friend, he knew that this day would have come. He could swear that was prepared for all that to happen but then…why was he crying? He shouldn’t right? He should he happy for Sho! Because finally he had the courage to confess his love! And more his love was even mutual! He should be so happy for his friend!

“Yes I’m happy for him...I’m happy…I’m…” he sobbed heavily.

“Happy…” he murmured before sank in his mattress and fell asleep.


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2 years later…

“Coming!” he shouted while heading to the door.

When he opened it he remained puzzled seeing Aiba Masaki standing right in front of him. Yes they were in a group together but he never came to his house once. Sincerely he didn’t even know how he knew his address.

“Hi! Sorry for coming so suddenly but I wanted to talk to you. If it’s okay for you of course” he smiled but Jun could see his anxiety.

“Don’t worry there is no problem, come on enter” he invited him in and then led him to his room.

He sat on the bed and gestured him to do the same but the older refused, evidently too nervous for sit down.

“So what do you want to talk about?” he asked normally.

He knew that this conversation maybe will about Sho but since he wasn’t sure of that, he preferred not to say anything.
Aiba took a deep breath and looked at him in the eyes.

“I’m going to tell this directly and I want to you to be honest with me” he said and Jun nodded.

“Okay so...Do you…Do you have a problem if me and Sho are dating?”

He knew that sooner or later this question would have come up so he smiled and laughed. Aiba stared at him confused not understand his reaction.

“I admit that at first it was hard. It was very difficult to see you two being all lovey-dovey but…I overcame it. If before I would turn around whenever I saw you, now I smile because you two are really cute together. It’s impossible to not ship you two” he stood up and walked up to him.

“I’m so relieved. You know when we were in MAIN this problem never crossed my mind but when Johnny-san put us in Arashi I started to be afraid. We would spend much time together and if you hated see us together it could be only bad for the group. I didn’t want Arashi to fall apart so fast because of me” he explained while keeping his head down.

Jun couldn’t help but smile.

“I understand why Sho fell for you” he said chuckling.

“Why?” the other asked confused.

The younger laughed and patted his shoulder.

“Just know one thing. I would always be his number one fan! You should at least leave me that position” he declared.

“At least?”

“Well you are the first in his heart right?”

They smiled at each other before Aiba pulled him in a hug. Jun just returned the hug and kept on smiling.

“Maybe we are not together but…if Aiba is the one by your side Sho…then I’m happy. Yes, I’m happy”



END